indifference.

mm; quick post for the end of the week cause that last post was definitely a draft i was supposed to finish 5 days ago..

these are one of those moments where i'm in between black and white.
i feel like i've been a part of the stupidest experience in my life, however i feel that i wasn't even a part of it all.
i feel like i shouldn't have done what was done, but i feel like it was the only thing that could have happened.
i feel like a victim, yet maybe i was just the instigator to the event.
i'm over it, but i'm not.
i want to tell everyone, and i want it to be non-existent in my memories at the same time.

do we do what's best for us?
or do we do what's best for the situation

come home

so in june i went on my famjam trip consisting of my 2 aunts, madre && sister.

our first stop was NY, i definitely would love to go back again.

we really only got 2 - 3 days there, 1 was dedicated to a tour, the other half was dedicated to WICKED [which was a beyond wonderful performance and is my favourite broadway which has some of my favourite tracks(L)

whiiiich, when you think about it isn't really a lot of time because we couldn't spend as long as we liked in each store, or if we did - then we sacrificed going to another store.

aiya well, NY wasn't quite what i thought it would be, but there was a lot of construction going on; NY is freaking huuuuuge. it's really something else, kind of reminds me of las vegas? when we went the weather wasn't as pleasing as we thought it would be but we were lucky it didn't rain! i really do want to go back maybe with family but for sure with friends. however i would only want to go when i have a good solid job so i can cover my shopping damage haha

from there we went to boston to catch the cruise. we didn't have as much time between landing and boarding the cruise so we couldn't do a tour which we were all stumped on! specially since it was pre-paid... ):

ahh this is my second time being on a cruise, the first time was a .. 7day? long cruise from san fran to vancouver relocating/reposition cruise i think it was called..

but yeah this was a 7day cruise from boston up past the maritimes

we went to novascotia,halifax,princeedwardisland,quebec! it was so much fun! i love cruises and i love the staff. they work so hard and for such long hours, but they are always so nice and cheery (mind you, their contract definitely demands that of them...)

we docked like every day to go see each city and had 1 full day at sea.

we got to see anne of green gables, PEI's largest jam store/producer thing, lots of canadian history aaaand yeah!

after the cruise, we landed in montreal then went to toronto

we have family in toronto, my grandma's sister lives tre as for a lot of the japanese relatives on my momma's side.

i love the east, toronto is really something different.

the style, the atmosphere - it's really crazy. you feel like you're apart of something bigger!

t dot also looks like NY too, like in their times square thingy with all of their high rise buildings and electronic-lit up advertisements!

spending 4 days (i wish it were for way longer!!) with them was absolutely wonderful. i was definitely home sick when i came to vancouver because family was left there so it really sucked.
i can't wait to go back to visit relatives, shop more and indulge in the night life!

sometimes our trip felt more like a chore than a vacation because we would have to wake up at like 8 or earlier to go on tours, or leave early to explore the town/city on foot back and forth- to and fro. but all in all it's one of my most enjoyable experiences ever and i love my famjam more than ever. (L)

"i'm on the pursuit of happiness,"

disappointment

it's been 2 months since i've posted

i feel like i've neglected a part of me that wanted to really grow in words, as stupid as it sounds.

obviously this blog was started so that i could voice my opinions, rant and try to create a link between words and my thoughts;

granted that during the summer i was "busy" i was also beyond lazy and i really want to change that around.

no more procrastination!
i mean i'm going into second year already, that word needs to be gone from my lifestyle!!!

RAAAA.

i should clean my room...

i'll do it tomorrow.