past, present and what may be.

do you ever have those moments that may not define your life, but question every decision and action made?

i'm not at all trying to be attention-whoring, depressed or trying to come off as super emotional (and no, i'm not pmsing thank you.) ..

i just, often come across these times or moments of insecurity.

moments where i'm surrounded by my self-pity :\

and from there on, thoughts just go downhill-

picking up every emotionally traumatic memory in my past 18 years.

i guess i've been re-evaluating decisions i've made in the recent years.

there are always going to be things i wish i never did,

words i never said,

and, regrettably.. people i wish i never met.

and i guess these 3 sum up life.

sum up who you are, where you are in your life and how it all came to be.

there's a thousand and one things i wish i could redo in my adolescent life.

but thinking about these trivial things

or dwelling over the past makes me wonder.

do you think of me the same way i think of you?

but i guess if i have to question it, the feelings probably weren't mutual.

i know i should give my past up, but i can't help but hold on.

i'm in love with the idea of things, the presence of people.

i hold on to memories and recycle them in fear i may not come across someone like you;

or a moment like this,

or an opportunity so appealing.

"i wanna believe in someone,

i wanna believe in something.

i want to believe that i can love again."